Friday, April 15, 2011

A Story of a Girl....

Let me tell you of a story of a girl.
A story of a girl,
who isn't a girl anymore.
A girl who turned into a woman,
as you will soon see.
A woman who is full of love
and has a dream of being free.

But back to the story of the girl,
this girl who is now a woman.
This girl who was full of wonder 
and life.
She was born to a man 
and to his wife.
Who needed this girl,
 very much, you see.
 They needed this girl more than they could believe.

Ohh this girl,  this girl ,
this girl who is now a woman.
Ohh how I wish, so very much wish,
you could have seen the life that was in this child.
Her eyes,
they were so bright.
Her eyes,
they sparked.
Her eyes,
they danced with delight.

She wasn't just an ordinary girl,
this girl who is now a woman.
Sitting in her room at night,
dreaming, dreaming, dreaming.
Of day's to come, 
of those very days she would become.
A wife, a mom, a woman.

This girl, this girl!  
this girl who became a woman.
She was God's muse,
and as God's muse,
He watched her, Loved her, delighted in her,
on His throne in Heaven.

But this girl, this wonderful girl,
this girl who became a woman.
A sad, sad thing has happened,
it has happened to her, you see.
She became a woman to early,
to early indeed.
Innocents was taken from her,
ripped from her hands,
Life was stolen,
her life was broken. 

To see this girl now, 
this girl who is now a woman.
Her eyes,
are cold like ice.
Her eyes,
are bare of light.
Her eyes,
are dark as night.
And as God sits on His throne,
His throne in Heaven.
He weeps the tears of injustice,
oh His daughter, His muse, His very being
To lose the life, the love, the wonderment
ohh the wonderment, she didn't know she gave. 

Looking at this woman, this woman,
this woman who was once a girl.
To lose herself,
in a cold, cold unfeeling world.
Has boxed herself in,
boxed herself up, all wrapped up with a shinny red bow.
To show that she is not scared,
unloved, and able to take the next blow.

For many years, So many years this woman,
this woman who was once a girl.
Longed for the girl she once knew,
the girl she once was.
Sometimes, at night, late at night
she would pray, scream, cry 
To make become clean again,
to become alive again.

What happened to this woman, 
this woman who was once a child.
Who is this woman,
this woman who was once a girl.
Is she you....
or is she me?




Sunday, April 3, 2011

It Was The Run Of My Life...

 Here we are, Sioux City Spring Thaw 5K.  I thought I was prepared.  Look at me...I have it all going!  The setting was beautiful...the weather, perfect!  The kids were left at home!



With my game face on, I did my stretching....had my mind into the game....was going to take this seriously!




The other girls were ready...they were complaining cause I'm too dang short to find in a crowd.



Susan did great!  I admire her, she did all that she wanted to do.  She ran the race without walking and her time was great!  My list of excuses of not accomplishing this goal:
1.  I didn't start running outside until last Sunday.  I "trained" on the elliptical.  Starting now, I'm run outside
2.  The dog ate my homework
3.  I have terrible shoes
4.  I have sinus problems
5.  I forgot to unleash the wild wolf that was supposed to chase me.
6.  I think I just plan gave up.  (Prideful tear falling now!)



But I did finish, with an okay time.  42:56 seconds.  Lets just say a very pregnant woman finished before me!  I don't want to talk about that.  But I will talk about how great this lady is besides me here.  She didn't finish with me like this is showing.  She came back to help me push the rest of the way.  Not only did was she done but she sprinted the last like half of block with me!  Now that's a great friend.




 Here's my biggest supporter during this all.  I hope he enjoyed to race and watching his little cupcake accomplish this.  Little fun thing he did get to enjoy...someone calling for dinosaur's right after the race!  It was a proud moment for him....and her, whoever she was!




 
I was happy I did the race and I plan to do some more this year and the years to come.  I know I didn't achieve the main goal of finishing under 40 mins.  But I did do something I thought I would never do.  Run long distance without being chased!  I liked the challenge and it's hard work. 

Till we meet again 5K....till we meet again!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Music Day 1

I have an insatiable thirst for music.  For as long as I can remember music has been my gateway into my emotions.  Usually what I'm listening to is a mirror image into how I'm feeling at the moment.  This is starting to change as I look to more inspirational music to inspire me.  I had an idea that I think I'm going to follow through on.  My idea is to share some of my favorite songs with you and how, when, and what was affected when I leaned on these songs.  It ranges from so many different styles.  I hope you enjoy it!

I think I'll start with some of my go to Praise and Worship songs that I love!

My first song I'm going to share has been a life line to me this year.  I am not joking when I say every time I turned on something, this song was there.  I don't know why...but it reached me when I wasn't listening to God.  I love this song, I sing it in the shower.  I mean just read some of the lyrics:

CHORUS
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

Into the darkness you shining
Out of the ashes we Rise
There’s no One like You
None like You.

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

Amazing right?!?!  How can you not get goosebumps on this song!

Then there's the ever popular song....Blessed be the name.  I used to wonder why I love this song.  Then I started to use this song as a prayer, or a lifeline if you will...but not in the way you'd think.  I would take these few words:

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I used to pray why?  Why would you give all these blessings to me and then take them away.  These I've learned are the hardest, hardest lesson I've learned.  To sit there and praise God for everything He's given me and when it's ripped from me...how can I force my heart to praise Your name.  But I learned that in the end there's always God...so nothing really was taken from me.

I'm going to give you more tomorrow...but I will leave you with this video. 

"Held"
by Natalie Grant

Last year at Women of Faith, she sang this.  I had just had my little Matthew,  and I couldn't help but think of my baby that is with God right now waiting for her mommy to come hold her.  God's whispering to me that everything is going to be alright....can you hear it in this song?

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

It's all about ME!

Okay.  You've met my kids and now I wanna talk about me. 

Why?

 Because I can.

Because it's my blog.

Because I'm self-centered...it's a problem...

Mike doesn't like it....because he's self-centered tooo.....

It works for us!


SO,  I have a list of fun facts about Lisa.  Things you should know about me but doesn't really matter!  Let's just say if you wanted to get to know me better, these are things you want to know.  Get it??  Good!

Fun Fact #1
When I get nervous talking to people...the way I word things, somehow makes me sound like I'm Yoda.  With zero wisdom behind the words.  I can't explain it, but yup!

Fun Fact #2
My Favorite color is Blue.  Midnight Blue to be exact.

Fun Fact #3
My Favorite Books are Christian romance books.  I'm a sucker for romance.  In Jr. High and High School when I was sick, I would watch Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, and many, many more fairy tales.  I loved it when Prince Charming would come and sweep the girl and find true love. And now that I found that myself, I don't know I just keep reading them!
 I also love thriller books.  There's nothing better in a novel where they make you want to become a detective and solve the complicated case that has happened.  When thriller books collide with romance books..I'm in Heaven.

Fun Fact #4
My favorite thing to do as a kid was swim.  I loved to swim.  There is just something about floating in the water that makes you feel almost like your flying.  I love the feel of the water, it is so easy to dive into the water and let everything just go away!

Fun Fact #5
If I could live anywhere on the in the U.S., it would have to be Colorado.  Just fell in love with it when I went to Estes Park for Rocky Mountain High in High School. 

Fun Fact #6
When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a beautician.

How many more fun facts are there???  We'll have to wait and see...

Friday, February 25, 2011

My Crazy Family

What it's been how long since I've written on here?  Weeks?  How can that be.  Well to be truthful I've been busy.  I mean 4 kids, sickness throughout the land, a wedding to look forward to, a daughter that keeps very much on my toes...and lets not talk about the boys right now!  I mean how can anyone think with all this winter going on...the cabin fever setting in.....................................
                                                     I WANT SUMMER!!! 
The sun in my face...the wind in my hair...the bugs attacking my skin...so hott that you may melt and could probably cook an egg on the cement.   Ahhhhh Yes...Summer!

Well enough of that talk.  I must say that I think it's about time for you to meet my attackers.  My stinkers.  My kids who ruined my body with which I'm working very hard to get back (19 pounds y'all!!) (sorry my wanna be southern accent couldn't be contained)

 Now on with the show...

This wonderful creature is my first born.  This one stole my heart the moment I laid eye's on him. This is also the one who first gave me all my stretch marks!  But he is also the one who made me realize that laughter is everything.  He's a great kid.  Full of himself.  A know it all, if your following my drift.  He looks just like his Daddy.  Scary?!?!?!  YES.   I'm not kidding, I'll show you the pictures sometime...not the stretch marks, but of Mike and Mason.


This one....well she's the apple of my eye.  She's my soul.  Her very being is me over and over.  She's our
Tootie girl, our Anna Banana, our cutie pootie; the list could go on and on.    Look at her. Beautiful blue eyes, gorgeous hair, wonderful nails!  I mean seriously, she is a beautiful little girl.  She also has an amazing ability to make anyone smile.  On another note...her teacher says she appreciate her very much, but Anna has a mind of her own and she will do what she wants. (now if we can only get her to use it for the forces of good!) Yes I love my wild spirited Anna!



 Now this one, there are no words.  He reminded me to smile.  Seriously, this one has taken my life away and replaced it with more than I could even describe.  Look at that smile, and those eyes, and that bruise..  How could you not love him at first sight?  He is also the one Mike and I are betting on to go streaking down the middle of the football field showing his school spirit!  GO DUTCH! 
His first word was silly...can you believe that.  Silly!  That's exactly how he is!





And last but not least is this little wee man.  The moment he was born I knew he was special, just like all my kids.  As I type, he is making a cheerio camp under his butt.  He loves making a mess with Cheerios's.  He can't help it, it's what he does.  I can't believe he is almost a year old.

               Matthew Roger Frangenberg,

 no one will ever spell your whole  name right.  Get used to it! 


There you have it, my kids!  Yes that is a scary thought!  I hope you've fallen in love with them, almost as much as Mike and I have.  And if you see me walking around with a confused look on my face, it's because I'm wondering why in the world God let me have these kids.  Really what was He thinking?  Sorry world.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

I think I have a problem..

I'm just saying this because I think I have a problem.  It's not a serious problem....well maybe it could be.  I am addicted to craft and food blogs.  I have them all over here in my little Crazy Life blog.  But oh the wonderful things I've found.  The sewing projects, the thought of being a knitter and crotchet, the food...the glorious food!  Could there not be anything better!  I have found some of my favorite things on here.  And it all started with The Pioneer Woman.  She started a bad thing in me.  Thanks a lot!  The Pies, the pizza, the thought that Mike would look down right wonderful in a pair of chaps, (sorry Mike!)  I did bring up the idea of packing up everything and become ranchers in Oklahoma.  He didn't think that would be a great idea.  He knows nothing of farming...give him a paint gun and he's the king.  Give him a cow and he'd run the other way.  Not a dis honey....just not a talent of yours...it's okay...I love you just the same!

Side note....we are having a snow day today.  No school=no peace for mommy=no peace for daddy, kind of day.  And my kids are "playing"  the three stooges. Someones going to get hurt.....fast!

Back to my love for blogging and all the blogger's out there!

My newest favorite little spot has just happened today...called:



They have tons of wonderful easy foods to do.  And a added bonus you can do them easily with your kids! 

By the way the side note I added moments ago....it happened...Nick is now wounded and is in need of assistance! 

I hope you guys check these two websites!!  They are tons of fun and I love reading them!

Friday, January 21, 2011

New Year....New Start

The best gift given to me on my birthday was my husband Mike saying...for your gift this year we are going to have a new start.  I loved hearing that.  After many years of struggling with whatever God through our way. It was nice to think of the year 2011 as a new start to new things. 

So I got on the bandwagon.  I hit it hard.  I started with a list.  My first thing was all the crafts and sewing projects I want to complete this year...hopefully before summer hits.  This has become my therapy...besides venting on this blog.  My next thing on my list was something I never thought I would do.  In High School, I used to love accounting.  But I never used it.  And how stupid is that, I mean we owned a business...I guess when I started having babies, my schooling part of the brain just got lost.  Mike and I found an online class through NCC and I decided to take it.  I think sometime during reading the first chapter....I crapped my pants...no pun intended!  Just in the form of how much I loved it and how much I knowledge I lost over the years.  It was almost like starting over.  I even got to get a shinny new calculator!  Isn't that great!  I wanted to hop over the Dollar Store (cause that's how I roll) and pick up some new shinny pencils.  Buuuut Mike reminded me that we have about a million of those little babies all over the house.  Literally.  I think my kids have got a dog like mind here.  It's like they need to protect them and hid them from everyone else.  There's been some days I wonder, what in the world is that pencil doing there???  How did it get there? 

ANYwho... 

The next thing on my list was cookie and cake decorating.  I asked Mike awhile back what can I do to save money around here.  And his reply was.."do whatever you can homemade and we'll go from there."  So I hit it hard.  I've got a list started.(Remember the craft and sewing list I mentioned)  I've some things done.  Most not.  But on that "what I can do at home" list was cookie and cake decorating!  I found out that the instructor for the class is a wonderful lady that goes to my church!  How much more can God be pointing to the big sign saying "GO THIS WAY"  at me?  So starting on Feb. 3, I am going to start with this adventure!  I can't wait. 

The biggest change I wanted to do this year, was loooooooose this massive weight that's been clinging to me for far to long.  Now I know babies.....right?  I can't keep with that excuse anymore.  Besides, it makes me unhappy.  Mike and I both are trying this new wellness program.  It's been working out great.  Best one I've done so far and I'm down 6 lbs. with only a week in.  With that, I decided to work out.  You know, tone...muscles ache...death could come soon.  I joined Kristen Lassen's Fitness  Boot Camp.  This is serious stuff.  My face was so red, that when I got home I fell to the floor and Mike thought I spent the hour at tanning salon (and fell asleep) then to the fitness center.  My kids grabbed my shirt and yelled, "mommy your shirts wet."  It was a great time though.  I loved getting out and giving this old body a run for it's money! 
Along with this wonderful Boot Camp.  I had a friend challenge me, if you will, to doing a program with her called Couch Potato to 5k, or C25K to us insiders.  And in April, God rest my soul, I'm going to do my very first 5k marathon.

It's taken me about ten years and 4 babies later to realize that I needed to dream alittle more.  I love my family very much. And it's worked out that I can do some of the things from my house, so I'm not away from them very long.  But it's also taken me ten years to realize that, these crazy kids of mine won't be under mike and I's house forever.  There are so many things I want to learn down the road.  Hopefully God will make a way.  I can't wait to see what happens!  Can you?